I’ve been flooded with emails, messages and calls about booking the space for the coming year. I’ve been delinquent in responding to them because the truth of the matter has been too painful for me to acknowledge. GEORGETTE as a physical space is discontinued.
Around November, after another billing cycle that cleared my bank account yet again I told myself that I couldn’t do it anymore. I told myself that the sacrifices I had made to run my own business weren’t worth it. I convinced myself that this was not my purpose.
The truth is that I didn’t believe I could do it. I didn’t believe that I had the same skills that other people possessed to be successful. My self worth was so low that I believed that nobody was going to ever want the product that I was putting out.
This realization has left me heartbroken, and searching within myself to find the trust that the universe will take care of me if I believe in myself. I’ve let the messaging of others dictate how I see myself. I’ve let my own doubt dictate my decisions. I’ve internalized the doubt of others because those ideas confirmed how I saw myself. If I had stepped into my worth, and believed I could do it, these opinions would not have mattered.
I don’t want to abandon GEORGETTE as a brand. However, we will be on hiatus. I have to heal my heart and mind in order to move on to the next phase. I welcome any thoughts, prayers, opportunities, ideas. Let me know how you found your worth. Let me know the practices you have that keep you feeling worthy. Let me know how you learned to trust in yourself and your abilities. Let me know how you stopped letting fear and doubt dictate your life.
If you too are struggling with finding your worth, path, and authentic self I’d love to hear from you too. Maybe we can figure this out together.
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